Medicine

I asked a doctor..... Is there a medicine for heartburn,

The pain and lifeless I feel, 

I asked a doctor...... Is there a medicine for confidence, 

The incompetent and hopeless I feel,

I asked a doctor....... Is there a medicine for attraction, 

The magnetic attraction and enchanted I feel,

I asked a doctor........ Is there a medicine for depression, 

The pointless and helpless I feel, 

I asked a doctor...... Is there a medicine for hate,

The loveless and rude words I face,  

I asked a doctor.......  Is there a way to time travel,

The childish blunder and idiot I had been,

I asked a doctor....... Is there a medicine to understand life,

The confusing and directionless i had been, 

I asked a doctor, is there a medicine to anger, 

The blood overflowing, how useless roaring I had been, 

The doctor said, this is how everyone's life had been........... just wake up and you will be fine. 

aadmi hu na, gam bata nahi sakta aansu dikha nahi sakta

Socha ki baat kar lu kisi se,  par kya hai na.......

Aadmi hu, gum bata nahi sakta, aansu dikha nahi sakta!

Socha ki kya karu duniya me ma tere bina, par kya hai na.....

Ab bada ho gaya hu, gum bata nahi sakta, aansu dikha nahi sakta!

Socha ki keh du logon se kyu karte ho bhed bhaav, kyu main hi alag reh jata hu sabse,

Par kya hai na...... 

Aadmi hu, gum bata nahi sakta, aansu dikha nahi sakta!

Socha ki kyu main hi akela reh Jata hu. Chah ke bhi kisi ko sath  aane ka main keh nahi pata....

Kya hai na, 

Aadmi hu, gum bata nahi sakta, aansu dikha nahi sakta!

Sochta hu ki mujhe dikhte sabke ghayal mann,

Koshish karta main ki hansta rahe har koi mere karan, 

Par kya hai na, 

Aadmi hu, gum bata nahi sakta, aansu dikha nahi sakta.

Sochta hu ki koi nahi jisku bol Saku tujhse hi hai apnaapan, meri har kamjori ko dur kare aisi hai teri lagan,

Par kya hai na, 

Aadmi hu, gum bata nahi sakta, aansu dikha nahi sakta !

Sochta hu ki kaun hai aisa jispe kar Saku bharosa, Maan bhadaye mera, na de Dhokha, nahi milta aisa kaisi se apna pan....

Par kya hai na, 

Aadmi hu, gum bata nahi sakta, aansu dikha nahi sakta!

Sochta hu Maan lu main apni haar, nikalna chahta hu main isse jo hai yeh makadjaal,

Par kya hai na, nikal nahi sakta, 

Aadmi hu, gum bata nahi sakta, aansu dikha nahi sakta!

Sochta hu, kaash kar sakta main bhi dhokha,

Bolu jhooth aur karu vaisa jaisa hota mere saath, 

Par kya hai na, jhooth bola nahi jata, 

Aadmi hu na, gum bata nahi sakta, aansu dikha nahi sakta!

Sochta hu. Maang lu bhagwan se mukti,

Karu sansar ko alvida. 

Par kya hai na,  parivar ko chor ke Bhaag nahi sakta, 

Aadmi hu na, gum bata nahi sakta, aansu dikha nahi sakta! 

self creation number 29. To be typed in hindi and few modifications to be done.... 

self creation 27 Present !!!! (Draft)

 Written on 13 Feb 2016

Future is derived from what you did in past and what you do now,
Yet Future is not what we can Predict or Alter, what we have in hand is only today !!!
Stock market was too low in past, may go to too high number in future, yet neither the past nor the future matters, because whatever I can purchase / sell I can do only today !!!

A child was nowhere in the world some time before, may soon be a world fame actor in future, yet today a child is just a child, neither the past nor the future can change.
Oh my heart !
Please understand this, what we have in hand is only today.
Past facts, figures, records can not change this.
Future Pressure, worries, tension, can not also change this.

self creation : 26 Wish I could flow like water

I wish I could flow like water,
like from one body to another body flowing flawlessly ,
I wish I could be water,
like depicting extreme of emotions ,
I wish I could earn like water,
water of a river whose depth & magnitude is so fascinating 
I wish I could be a river,
leaving the wishes egos and giving life.....

self creation 25

sathi pila aisa jaam ki bhool jaun main khud ko....
dil me dafan hai jo raaj bhool jau main unko....
ek arse se dil me dabi hai jo baat bhool jau main unko....
hai duniya ke yeh sab iljaam bhool jau main unko....
hai yeh sab riti aur riwaaj bhool jau main unko...
chubta hai wo waqt aur wo baatein bhoolna chahu main unko............

another old self creation

वफ़ा की उम्मीद में बैठे हम, 
वफ़ा की उम्मीद में बैठे हम,
कोई बेवफाई की हदें तोड़ दे तो क्या करें....
अजी एक-दो  हों तो गिला शिकवा भी करें आपसे,
सारा जमाना ही ऐसा हो तो हम क्या करें ?????????  

You are my Special one !

You are special.... So special that I dont have words to express you !
You doubt your ability....  you dont know how much capable you are for me !
You think you are alone.... you dont know I can spare all time of my life for you !
You think you are not cared.... you dont know I want you to be self dependent for this world will always be hard upon you !
You think you can fight with me.... you dont know even I argue,but deep inside the side I will choose will always be you !
You think I cant know your love for me.... you dont know I notice the every little  sacrifice that has been done by you !
You think you 'own' me.... you dont know, I have sacrificed myself to all extent to get this belief in you !
You think you can 'ignore' me.... you dont know, your silence talks more than you !
You think your problems are only for you.... you dont know, I can fight with god for you  !
You think you read it correctly, no my dear, you dont know I have chosen my special one as you !

fire inside me !

A fire has started from heart,
Ignoring the rational thinking of mind,
the fire is looking for sources to feed,
the negative air chokes a bit,
feels like i have been surrounded as bait,
but the fire keeps burning,
the desire to achieve something keeps pushing,
the world full of illusions tries to  stop fire ,
but who knows purpose of matchstick is to made fire,
dont know how much dangerous the fire is,
for the desire to succeed is always dangerous and fiery,
dont know how much it will cost to keep burning,
but then may be it is in my fate to undergo the burning,
afterall a sword is forged from fire,
then why my mind keeps checking the level of fire,
let all desires burn,
let all wishes burn,
you are a sword, you are a material,
it is your karma to burn,
why this hesitation , why this ignorance,
fire is dangerous but what danger when the world itself is set upon killing,
burn it burn it, be the fire, ignore the obstacles, be the fire,
let the emotions burn,
let the obstacles burn,
you are a sword, you are a material,
it is your karma to burn !

Self creation Number xx

लिखना तो बहुत था पर कलम नहीं चली ,
मन में सोचा तो बहुत था पर जुबान नहीं चली ,
देखा तो उसे सबने था पर किसी के दिमाग में बत्ती नहीं जली ,
जलती भी कैसे आखिर पड़ोस के किराना स्टोर पे मेन्टोस जो नहीं मिली !!!!

self creation Number xx

सोचता हूँ क्यों मैं ऐसा हूँ ,
दर्द छुपाता हूँ सीने में और ख़ुशी छलकाता हूँ चेहरे पे ।
सोचता हूँ क्यों मैं ऐसा हूँ ,
रोता हूँ अकेले में और हँसता हूँ महफ़िल में ।
सोचता हूँ क्यों मैं ऐसा हूँ ,
देना चाहता हूँ मैं दुनिया को पर बटोरता हूँ खाली हाथों से ।
सोचता हूँ क्यों मैं ऐसा हूँ ,
कर्म करता नहीं हूँ और खफा रहता हूँ अपनी किस्मत से ।
सोचता हूँ क्यों मैं ऐसा हूँ ,
शुरू करता हूँ नयी शुरुआत और जुझता हूँ आगे निकलने के लिए उसी मोड़ से ।
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